It’s not about what you can absorb, it’s about what you can tolerate.
You gotta be able to tolerate the suck of what you don’t want to feel and the subsequent mental resistance that you come with, because that shit has repercussions.
We can chart and log our completed physical work, but it tells us nothing about what we can tolerate when push comes to shove.
How much of the mental reverberation are you logging?
What do you really know about yourself?
The repercussions of that reverb are happening in your body and nervous system, they will continue to choose the familiar path of chaos until you learn how to choose consciously and differently.
So put simply, feeling it, accepting it and letting it be is the evolution of your tolerance.
The confidence you are seeking isn’t going to come from completed sessions. That idea is corrupt.
The world is full of great trainers who can’t race, because they can’t adapt and react accordingly when the chips are down.
Dude, you are looking for the X factor within yourself.
That will come when you finally realise, no amount of wanting is going to change what’s happening out there.
The body informs your mind, if only you’ll really listen. The adaption is the course correction the body makes when mind and body are in sync. We call that "flow".
Otherwise, the body is reacting to the warning shots your alarmed mind is sending. It’s not the course or the competition.
This is about your mind's bias and its habitual resistant patterns that play out when you are not looking. When you are unconscious of your own deeper experience.
So here’s your chance for a cheat code.
Most people aren’t looking in training because they are too busy focusing on the prescription and the journal. Both are outside yourself.
It’s not about the journal, it’s about the journey.
In order to really feel what’s happening to you, there has to be a level of willingness and compassion for yourself, that’s bloody hard for an athlete to bring.
You have to stop the disassociation. You gotta accept yourself and pay attention.
Because I’m telling you straight:
Tolerance and compassion are the qualities of the fearless.
Gilesy